Monday, June 29, 2009

Holy Crap

A Rant: Scene Chicks
androgynous & shitty personalities. I'm on the fence with them.
most of them are bitches who look alike.
But I don't feel that way about all of them.
Because you can't say all of one genre are the same.











Crraaazzyyy.

















What the fudge is this crazy shit?









This is the stuff that LAWLs are made of.
















Do you think he considered this might happen before he got on?

Sunday, June 28, 2009


fan>fanatic-insane person(from)>fanaticus-mad, inspired by god(from)>fanum-temple

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Comic Numeo 2!!!



40 oz. of courage

A collection of past Quotes of the Day


I ain't even FOR violence and it makes my bitch-slappin' hand quiver!
-Unknown



Quote Of The Day
All human actions have one or more of these seven causes: chance, nature, compulsion, habit, reason, passion, and desire.
~Aristotle
(384 BC - 322 BC)



Quote Of The Day
Whatever is produced in haste goes hastily to waste

~Saadi
(1184 - 1291)




By Myself
For Matthew
  • I am a pilgrim in an unholy land
  • I don't know what it means but its meaningful
  • Your body is my temple
  • I want to share your disease


Matthew 6:34
So never worry about tomorrow, because tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."





Quote Of The Day

The freethinking of one age is the common sense of the next.
-Matthew Arnold (1822-1888)


Quote
Don't let it end like this. Tell them I said something.
-Pancho Villa (1877 - 1923)







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An Electrifying Quote:
"lose the stinking rot of self righteousness and understand that we are all in need of some grace."
-Bob Inglis




My Wishlist

If I had enough money I would tots buy theses for myself which is I being.

sexy dress
-to be added to the wishlist.








Sound FX Websites:

FindSounds.com






I've decided to start writing a comic and posting it on my blog. I hope it goes somewhere. I really hope it doesn't just end up with me drawing penises all over the place.
And on another side note... How would one go about winning back the love of an ex lover?



IMPORTANT!!!
Scan Test as a study aid.



GED Tests on the 20th & 21st at 7:45 AM.


Secret Message:

i love you and i have dreams of you every night, so i've started to lose sleep over it.

Thanks to typetester.org I can present my blog in any font I like. And that's not an advertisement. I just want to remind myself of the site.




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I was looking up levels of pedophilia in the US compared to other countries. Found this stuff.

"Pedophilia is a paraphilia that involves an abnormal interest in children. A paraphilia is a disorder that is characterized by recurrent intense sexual urges and sexually arousing fantasies generally involving: nonhuman objects; the suffering or humiliation of oneself or one's partner (not merely simulated); or animals, children, or other nonconsenting persons. Pedophilia is also a psychosexual disorder in which the fantasy or actual act of engaging in sexual activity with prepubertal children is the preferred or exclusive means of achieving sexual excitement and gratification. It may be directed toward children of the same sex or children of the other sex. Some pedophiles are attracted to both boys and girls. Some are attracted only to children, while others are attracted to adults as well as to children.

Pedophilia is defined by mental health professionals as a mental disorder, but the American legal system defines acting on a pedophilic urge as a criminal act."

I like to try and understand every question I encounter, even if I have no answer for it.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Everyone is

Everyones gone crazy
but i dont seem to show
Everyones amazing
but I'm the only one who knows
turn the lights out
breaking down
only need to see the note of a sound
No on here understands
the life and work of a great man
Everyones gone crazy
but no one seems to know
Your life and works amaze me
but you don't care to show



So I haven't been in class for a bit. I have to scan and save my work first so I can study it for the GED. The test which is on the 20th and 21st of the coming month. Kind of excited, but nervous, which is slightly lame.


i'm about to go through the center of the sun
if i walked into nothing would i be your chosen one?
will you stay through the stables and hold me down
see i'm not so gone but i'm not so sound
hey
hold me down
hey
bring me down
hey
hold me down
hey
bring me down
(r2)
I've been gone for so long
can't stand the wait
i've been looking through yout eyes searching for the hate
they said
hey
i'll take you out
hey
i'll take you down
hey
your not of sound
mild
or body
or
around
n i say
hey
hold me down
hey little baby
take me down
little man
little money
but your proud.


time begins and ends here
at the edge of the town



life is a parody of a tragedy


i am a parasite, baby
suckling the teet of your misery
i'll feed off your sadness
so maybe
its not so crazy that i'd be causing it
get away
get away from me
leave me to die
i am scum and will be
left to the vultures




buterfly paintings on the wall
who is the fairest one of all
sure as hell wasnt you
sure as hell wasnt you youlying whore
made me think i was nothing
tried to take everything away from me
my jealousy wouldve caused you extasy
thank god i only pittied you
you jealous whore
you are nothing and never more
and average simple insane whore
narsasictic so you must also be
self oloathing




my art is not made for you
just inspired by
you make me believe
if everything wasnt so beautiul
i'd lose everything
your eyes are so heavey your hair
'll grow low
i cant have a son
i cant love anyone
if their not you


~amfmp
shes my best friend when shes gone
but its the only way she'll be here




cover: sweet dreams are made of these

cover: zombie

cover: forestfire

Ch-ch Ch-check it out!

Awkward Zombie- its a blog.

"Smith and Logan's Naked Zombies" ??? I don't know what this is refering to, but I can't seem to find out.

Check out Rising Dead.

Raymondo Person
- its another blog, but with comics.

Do me a favor...

Comic Books
  • blackgas
  • escape of the living dead
  • zombies! feast
  • the walking dead
  • living with zombies
I would really love to check these out. If anyone could send me some links to sample it, that would be great! <3

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

gaaaahahaaaaa

i can see the clouds in the skys
they're rolling over with hate
the darkness ills their melow eyes.
i just know that its toolate
oh great, my eyes are welling up
and theres nothing we can do
the skys are pouring down on me
but all i wanted was you
so tell me little flufffy cloud
why you play these games
i think you're this one thing
but then you change your shape
a whole new amorphis shape
my little fluffy cloud
you seemed so very small
and tender like \
I stayed up all night. :(
i'm not making the case.
i'mjust posing the question.
They have got to pay for the crimes they've committed. They are monstrosities. That's why they hide their faces.

http://www.schecterguitars.com/

someday life will be wonderful
it will be

and that in its self makes life better now
somewhat better,not tons, just so you can understand.
but even that is amazing


your words are like the medicine for when i'm feeling down.



mr.x the profit who compliments my sound.





Music is the food of the soul

playonmyfriend
play on

the council of five

cant tell you what hell be doing
cant tell you what hell be studying
but he segways into blues.
then back and forth from his guitar
they all radiate rainbow tones
the red the yellow the blue.
the black and white to tune
to be so crazy youuu
arguing with you
fly away to jupiter
sit in a circle with me
in indian stance we'll be
the primary of me
they represent my moods in eternity
the white is pure
its what i want to be
the blackest is me
is who i seem to be
the council of five

Music is the language of love

it is. it really is.


~the sitar
a guitar met a harp, they fell madly in love, started making love every where, on the counters and the floor, and a little sitar popped out.


my love is divine.
it was given by god!
...to another man.

Matthew understands me.
Hes a fucking douche bag though, who threw away love.
aaannnddd- he's never getting it back.


i deserve my self esteem and self respect.
Xavier told me so!
lol.


to believe so lowly of myself, is wrong.
to think that I could be ok with the love of my life being with other women is wrong.
and he is ugly.
and i adored him.
and he is not what i loved.
and even though he could be, he doesn't want to be.


i want a sitar




the road to hell is paved in good intentions.

~listen to this
just another face in the crowd.
i've been thinking it over in my head.
is my head held lowly or proud.
ikeep thinking. so many times he says hes wrong about me
like handing over his side of the world.
turn around and take it back.
if you're a man, then be a man and take my hand.
but if you weren't then hold your stand
and i'll leave this land.
never coming home again.



running scenarios
hypotheticals


were kindred spirits

kinda wana know what youre thinking
whats going through your mind
if its the same as me


i am not inherently good
i've had dirty thoughts
then felt disgusted and ashamed.
oh my god
whats wrong with me?
if we were to fall into categories
my friend
you say i would be one of the good ones.




and i'll think of you, wont say it loud.
i think i'll keep it to myself.
in an average day
i feel so much shame and self loathing.
i think from everyone's perspective.
as many others' as i can.



i dont want to think about it
i wana get it out of me
i wana get it out
dont want to nurture it.
i want to be an influence

Sunday, June 21, 2009

because im happy you're alive.
i'm glad to see you exist.

i can't silence my mind
i have to think all the time.

one thing i value more than love
personal freedom
everyone's freedom

i've been searching for my lot in life

there shouldn't be slums of any place.

drugs aren't good.
have self respect
don't be a coward.

i want to be a Swiss citizen

i'm overly trusting, but thats my appeal.








what is it good for absolutely nothin

cat dancing video

Saturday, June 20, 2009

In the early days, many of the names were cleared through Cheney's office. One of his aides, John Hanna, went on TV and acknowledged that the programme exists, and said killing these people is not murder but an act of war that is justified legally.

source



You have spoken about an assassination unit that reported to Cheney called the Joint Special Operations Command (JSOC). There have been allegations that this unit was responsible for former Lebanese prime minister Rafik Hariri's assassination. In Cheney's view this isn't murder, but carrying out the "war on terror".


SEYMOUR HERSH: In the early days, many of the names were cleared through Cheney's office. One of his aides, John Hanna, went on TV and acknowledged that the programme exists, and said killing these people is not murder but an act of war that is justified legally.
what is it good for absolutely nothin

cat dancing video

Xavier Allen

-xavier
the best thing you can do is
live your life in a way you would be proud of
to the point where you could tell it all to someone with a smile on your face.



socialist democracy.
the great one for all and ll for one.

youve gatta stay humble, because if you get concieted behind your own word, you're ganna pay for it someday.


America is playing a game and losing.
if life were monopoly china has all the hotels on the board and we're on free parking.
next roll, we're done for

Friday, June 19, 2009

weird idea

Make a bunch of honest sounding craigs list missed connections ads.
tots fake though.
see what people email me.
make a youtube video about it
The surgery can cost as little as $1,800 and range all the way to $3000.

Hello Jell-o!

Jell-o, marshmallows, some gummy candies and other desserts are made using gelatine (or gelatin), which is produced by boiling the bones, skin and tendons of animals. So if you are serious about avoiding eating any animal derivatives, these desserts have to be taken off the menu. Luckily, there are alternatives to gelatine that are used by many manufacturers. Agar agar is derived from seaweed and the root of the Kuzu is also an effective substance. You can also look for products made with guar gum, carrageenan and pectin instead of gelatine. Gelatine can pop up in unexpected places (Kellogg’s Mini-Wheats is one example) so make sure to read labels diligently.

Say Cheese!

Lacto-ovo vegetarians (those that eat dairy products and eggs) see no problem with eating cheese since it is not a product that an animal must die to produce. However, there is an ingredient involved in the cheese-making process that may not meet that criterion. Rennet is added to milk in order to coagulate it and turn it into curds, which are then processed into various cheeses. Most rennet comes from the stomach lining of slaughtered newborn calves. It is possible to obtain rennet from bacterial or fungal sources and advances in genetic engineering means the active ingredient in rennet, chymosin, may also be produced by altering micro-organisms. Vegetarian cheeses are now readily available in grocery stores, but they must be labelled as such. Neither soft nor hard cheeses are more likely to be produced with vegetarian rennet.

Food Additives

A wide variety of food additives are classed as non-vegetarian. They include emulsifiers, colourings, sweeteners, flavour enhancers and preservatives. Some obscure examples include shellac, a common glazing agent, which is a resin secreted by an insect called the lac bug Laccifer lacca Kerr (Coccidae) and L-cysteine, most often produced commercially from either the hair and feathers of slaughtered animals or the hair of human women in third world countries. Visit Veggie Global for a full list of suspect food additives.

Other Products

Some non-food products are also made using animal products and should be avoided by strict vegetarians. Film has traditionally been processed using gelatine. Non-gelatine film is available, but expensive. Digital photography is an affordable alternative.

The Art of War by Sun Tzu
tell me tell me
who were you with on prom night
was he worth it
did he touch you
did he love you
tell me
who were you with on prom night
did he take you
did he make you
did he reck you for me
baby
tell me
who were you with on prom night
was he worth it
did he work it
did he give you everything you wanted to feel
did he show you everything you thought was real
cause and he'll cheat you
and he'll leave you
and that's exactly what you deserve.
baby tell me whered you go on prom night
whered you roam to?
i called home to
maybe find you
baby
tell me
where did you go on prom night
was it parties



was he worth it

Afra!! Yay!!


anthropomorphic creatures
she reminds me of the Cheshire cat here.
i have kind of half formed ideas about what to do with this idea.

Thursday, June 18, 2009


Father's Day is Sunday, June 21 2009




Books To Read

  • A House of Pomegranates by Oscar Wilde
  • The Happy Prince and Other Tales by Oscar Wilde
  • Tao Te Ching Written by Lao-tzu From a translation by S. Mitchell
  • From Freedom To Slavery: The Rebirth of Tyranny in America by Gerry Spence
  • Rules for Radicals" by Saul D. Alinsky
  • Give Me Liberty: A Handbook for American Revolutionaries by by Naomi Wolf

Alice's Adventures in Wonderland


Through the Looking-Glass, and What Alice Found There
you put your faith in me
and i will fix the world the way you want it to be


take your tired
your poor
yur hungry


when you speak to the masses
you have to say something to make them listen

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

anyone else but you- the moldy peaches
dj kool- let me clear my throat

Musics of all varieties!

careful- guster
never ganna fall in love again- snow patrol
3rd planet- modest mouse
mardy bum- arctic monkeys
last favor- the finches
naked as we came- iron & wine
about her- malcom mclaren
all these things that i've done- by- the killers
down the line- jose gonzalez
the transfiguration- sufjan stevens
postcards from italy- beirut
oh well, okay- elliot smith
the preditory wasp of the pali...-sufjan stevens
cavaliers har hum- bombadil
summer's the worst- michael leviton
we are what you say- surjan stevens
in the mausoluem- beirut
sleeping diagonally- iron & wine
maybe not- cat power
t. hatch says "round ev'ry co..- P:ano
save me a place- vetiver
about today- the national
blue eleanor- old canes
left behind- zero 7
seven swans- sufjan stevens
mix missiles- andrew bird
nantes- beirut
each coming night- iron & wine
how low- jose gonzalez
rosa- devendra banhart
the king of carrot flowers pt. one- neutral milk hotel
empty- ray lamontagne
i don't know if i'll be back this time- sea wolf
the last beat of my heart- DeVotchKa
i want wind to blow- the microphones
queen of the surface streets- devotchka
boom boom goes the day- sean hayes
crooked teeth- death cab for cutie
miss misery- elliot smith
warning sign- coldplay
be still my heart- the postal service
high and dry- radiohead
why you'd want to live here- death cab for cutie
hallelujah- jeff buckly
amsterdam- peter, bjorn, and john
amsterdam- coldplay
We looked like giants- death cab for cutie
is there a ghost- band of horses
the dress looks nice on you- sufjan stevens
see you in heaven- elliott smith
2+2=5 - Radiohead
you can do better than me- death cab for cutie
these arms- matt costa
amputtions- death cb for cutie
burning- the whitest boy alive
this place is a prison- the postal service
creep- radiohead
change your mind- the killers
morning bell/amnesiac- radiohead
fire it up- modest mouse
let down- radiohead
eye- smashing pumpkins
jack-ass- beck
feeling good- muse
got to get you into my life- the beatles
across the universe- fiona apple
sender- pinback
yellow- coldplay
young pilgrims- the shins
hands away- interpol
marching bands of manhattan- death cab for cutie
communion cups and someone's...- iron & wine
is this it- the strokes
nothing better- the postal service
no sunlight- death cab for cutie
title and registration- death cab for cutie
blue light- block party
here i dreamt i was an architect- the decemberists
incubus- ana molly
Au Revoir Simone - The Lucky One
love underground- robbers on high street
grace kelly- mika
persuit of happiness OST
the pink spiders- adalae
band of horses-No One's Gonna Love You
Underoath - Breathing In A New Mentality
Kanye West - Can't Tell Me Nothing
Dexy's Midnight Runners - Come On
Crystal Castles - Crimewave
Weezer - The Greatest Man That Ever Lived
The Cool Kids - Gold And A Pager
Duran Duran - Hungry Like The Wolf
Nickasaur! - Omfggzz We Like to Party!
The Vines - Ride
MIA - Paper Planes
Outkast - Roses
Billy Joel - The River Of Dreams
Dr.Acula - Say Cheese And Die
Owl City - The Saltwater Room
Death Cab For Cutie - Title And Registration
Haddaway - What Is Love (7" Mix)
3OH!3 - Starstrukk
the sessions- my love

what is this song?
when the white of our eyes come through you will see something new

dadadeedah: just a lil something
oh these troubled time what i wouldnt give to be alive

mae sounds of extasy and agony at the same time

intrest means how much more am i ganna have to pay for it when i come back home






something about me
i eventually want to do something that combines nursing, teaching, and
http://www.crunchyroll.com/media-529460/legend-of-the-condor-heroes-1/
Tuesday, June 23
PLAIN WHITE T'S

COMPANY OF THIEVES
DAYS DIFFERENCE
Doors open 7:30pm
$14.99 Ticketmaster


horripilation- erectionof the skin hair due to fear or cold
from horrer, where horror comes from.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

off line

In these troubled economic times, it's important not to lose sight of that ... fueled by those corporate entities who would want us to continually spend ... So
, keep that dream alive, persevere and be diligent toward your life's purpose! ... Study the situation the best you can, be strong, and don't give up hope! ...


something cool


the sessions- my love


where do thses lyrics come from?: oh these troubled time what i wouldnt give to be alive

Saturday, June 13, 2009

[PROTOTYPE]

the fine blotchy skin of his arms
does it alarm you
that he'd touch you
tell you he lovesyou
but what does it mean?
if he coulde take this
and

these walls are measurements of our love.. can you break them down for me?

because i'm weak
and i'm sick
and you're able bodied.





so i saw a picture of matthew online when i was looking through northeast highschool's web page.
i had to find out something about getting a ged and i started looking though it. i saw a picture of him and i saved it.and heas wearing the shirt i gave him, and i got happy when i saw that.
i'm still in love with him.
:( but the world already feels like its ended.
becauseits ended ands thats all she can give.
the walls are closing in, but we comend it
the world that has end it
the roof is caving in, should we defend it?
the world that has ended
should we sin
should she?
the love that is gone, we comend it
and we end it.
but i don't want to let her go.
so i'll hide it.
and i'll wallow.
...

Friday, June 12, 2009

love is a one hit wonder.

Grace Kelly- Mika


love is a one hit wonder. its true.
and no wonder i'm without you
you run around thinking
its not true, but let me tell you.
you won't find another love like this.
you wont ever find anything as pure as your first hit.

and then you'll spend your days thinking back
and you'll wonder, what if.
love with all your heart, and don't let it go, because if you do.
it never meant that much, oh no.
it never meant that much at allalalalalalaall
so

don't ever let the world tell you so
don't ever let this world tell you so
it isn't so
its not so
dont let go
do'nt let them tell you so
it isn't so
it isn't so
don't let go
please don't let go (*this part is faded out)
desensitize
devaule
those lovely eyes
that pretty hair
your gorgeous.
girl
you're gorgeous.




















i can only sit here
and i'll stare
that's all i can bear
i can't touch you
i can't feel you
its cause i
i fear you
i can only sit her
in my chair
and i can't confront you
i cannot comfort you
but i will still care.
tease me
tempt me
make a mockery
i know i'm no chosen one
but they'll tell you son
sonny
theres no way out once you're in
there's no way back home
once you've left all your kin.
moms not coming
so just grit your teeth
they're not comin to get you
bring you back home east








your thoughts
boggle my mind
your thoughts
theypoison my mind
and i
am helpless to find
you in the arms of another
you in the arms of another
youin the arms ofany other
because of me
thats what you say
thats all you can. say.
thats all they say
i'm crazy so
so that makes it ok?
because i'm crazy anyway
that makes it ok?
but you forget yourself
forsake me for your common health
when you know you dont wanna
oh boy you don't wanna
keep coming back
back home
and you expecg me to be there
waiting every time
but not this time
oh no.not this time
so take it back
i'm not another heart attack
i've got no time
for your love games
or shame of the mind.
its not my time.
not my mind state
i'm as heathy as hello
but you know
thats y you take me
every time
say hello.
good bye
god be with you
good bye.

Remeber.

There are no winners.
Only losers and the sometimes successful.

Random ideas I've collected.

tell me tell me
who were you with on prom night
was he worth it
did he touch you
did he love you
tell me
who were you with on prom night
did he take you
did he make you
did he reck you for me
baby
tell me
who were you with on prom night
was he worth it
did he work it
did he give you everything you wanted to feel
did he show you everything you thought was real
cause and he'll cheat you
and he'll leave you
and that's exactly what you deserve.
baby tell me whered you go
on prom night
whered you roam to?
when i called you

i called home to
maybe find you
baby
tell me
where did you go on prom night
was it parties



was he worth it





he makes my heart twist and ache
i pray the lord my soul to take

but i have life to go do

you cannot see
but that your blindness causes misery
we cannot function
in your society
we will not pay heed
to criminalization
we are not monsters
just self destructive
these are our liberties
consider your priorities
we are not monsters
we are not murderers

independant nation
of jah creation?
of our own creation?


xavier's
rhymes fly from timeto time keep thatin mind


with each brand new day
its a beautiful
its a beautiful
construct your delusions
its a beautiul
its a beautiful
and make your own way
its a tajic
but its a beautiful
brand new day
its a brand new day


is it ok
that its not normal
to be this way
is it
is it
is it ok




stuff to check out:
umbrella academy
greatest hits
the walking dead





subliminal cut: make a video with subliminal messages spliced in

male vs female

Meet Me in the Future...

Pulchritudinous- adjective physically beautiful; comely.

Pusillanimous - adjective
lacking courage or resolution; cowardly; faint-hearted; timid.
proceeding from or indicating a cowardly spirit

Sin- used to mean: to miss the mark.
synn- it is true
es- to be
sons- guilty
hamartia- to miss the mark

Glamorous- glamour and grammar meant the same thing- very spiritual and weird things
alluring is not bewitching attraction

Abracadabra

Lame comes from lama- broken,crippled, weak.


Serendipity-

look for something, find something else, and find that it is more suited to your needs.

lucky find or happenstance




floccinaucinihilipilification- action or habit of judging something to be totally worthless.
flocci from floccus- trivial
nauci- totally worthless
nihili from nihil- nothing
pili from pilus- something insignificant.


Good-bye- god be with you. similar to adieu.
Adieu- I commend you to god.



Acus- needle
acuere- to sharpen
acutus- past participle of acuere
acute from acutus- a small sever disease or fever.
Cute- from acute

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Krazzydude07

SO I've decided to copy a YouTuber named Krazzydude07 because he copies Charlieissocoollike, and thats awesome.

This is the first blog of the rest of my life.

teeHee~

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